Please Help Me (Part 1)

I am no longer my self
It’s like something has taken over me
I can’t say and maybe I don’t know
Please help

I can’t talk too much again
Because I feel
Silent is all I needed
Whereas care is all I needed
Please help me

I no longer find interest in things I love doing
It looks like I know nothing about it
I was once a guru in the things I love doing
Now am a beginner in things I love doing
Please help me

I check my back after each step I take
I know someone is coming to take my life
But you walk confidently because you live in him
I wish too but my shadow has overshadowed me
Please help me

I don’t feel comfortable in the midst of people
Cos what I see as wrong is their right
Cos everything I’ve learnt from experience
Looks like a cultured waste
Been put in a wasted waste bin
Making my shadows overcome me
Please help me

I walk alone trying to be the best I could ever be
But you walk with an inner Spirit
Who comforts and guides you
But I don’t have such spirit
I wish to have it and you deprived me from getting it
Please help me

Challenges and I are like a part of a particular body
I don’t know how to overcome it
But you know and you kept it to yourself
Till the challenges took over me like a tornado
Please help me

There’s a lot of burden I wish to share
But everyone makes me feel it’s insecure
Leaving me alone the burden
Making me a lifeless living being
Please help me

Lots of ideas I have to make my country a better place to be
But people kept driving me crazy without saying the ideas
Letting my idea look like vision 9942
That will never be accomplished
But be buried with its hope in a grave that is more than 76 ft.
Please help me

I’ve had a lot of sleepless night
Trying to look for amendment
But my shadow still overshadows me
Putting me in the dark
Please help me

Everything I have no longer looks
Like I own them
Its looks like I borrowed to own
The things I own
I am confused each day
Please help me

I need help but too shy to ask
Cos I feel like an ant leaving in the estate of Elephant
Always afraid of what the outcome will be
Knowing their reply will shatter my atom body into micro atom
Making me look like living mortuary
Please help me